tapping out

I'm tapping out. I'm done for a while. Need to cocoon. Thank you all for your support...please respect the need for distance right now.

what next??

One of my molars is chipped...a little chunk is missing along the edge. No idea how it happened...trying to get an appointment to get it taken care of.

Joyfulness.

20081028.0855: My dentist squeezed me in this morning...off I go.

20081028.1100: Weak spot along filling caused a chunk of enamel to break off. Nothing could have prevented it, which is good news. Bad news: even with insurance, I'm likely going to have to pay about $900 out of pocket to get it taken care of. Have a follow-up appointment tomorrow, and then the procedure happens next Wednesday.

shuffle play is effing killing me

Pops in headphones, hits play...


"...You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And every time tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
And someday you will be loved..."


Next track, dammit.


"...All I know
Is that my days go on and on
Without you here, without you here
My days go on and on
Without you here, without you here..."


Oh for the love of...next track.


"...I wanna believe in someone
I wanna believe in something
I wanna believe that I can love again
I wanna believe in someone
I wanna believe in something
I wanna believe that I can love again..."


Sigh. Seriously?? Shit...next track.


"...I’m not over
I’m not over you just yet
Cannot hide it
You’re not that easy to forget..."


No. Just...no. Next.


"...The feeling sometimes
Wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though
You never belong
This feeling is not sadness
This feeling is not joy..."


Gah. Weep. Next.


"...I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'Cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me..."


[quietly wraps headphones around mp3 player and puts it away]

thank you, susy...

Saw Richard Cheese at Bimbo's in SF with Susy last night. A good time, fun and cheesy, and ended up being a much-needed escape...it's hard to stay stuck in your own head when a guy in a fuzzy tiger print tuxedo jacket is singing "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails in full-on lounge style.

Love you, Suse...

time flies

Started full-time at Facebook a year ago today.

of course

Furnace isn't working. 54 degrees in the house.

Joy.

Update - 20081017: still no furnace...apparently they are waiting for parts.

20081022: still waiting

20081024: the landlord's handyman husband finally gave up...they will be calling someone today

sigh

Been throwing up this morning...but because of the changes at work, I can't afford to call in sick.