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Getting ready for the Facebook formal...a pedicure, heels, and rhinestones [our little girl is growing up]:

you know what i like?

I like that getting a manicure and pedicure means you can't really do anything for the rest of the evening, or you might mess them up.

[Shhh...don't tell me otherwise. I like my happy little world of rationalization.]

igludo

[you'll get it when you watch the video]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBzXuFi8No4

more ludo awesomeness

Extremely random: http://www.youtube.com/user/ludotoothbrushthing

ludo = awesome-sauce

Love this song. Love this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCU1JYmGxcA

[watch for the 'coffin' visual pun]

nice to hear

Went to our SF datacenter yesterday with an Ernst & Young auditor, to do some on-site testing...had the post-mortem today to go over their results, questions, exceptions, and so on.

Made it through, and when talking with one of the auditors later, he told me that the senior manager had told him that "Stacey really knows her stuff."

Not too shabby for an IT geek in a finance world... :^)

punishment

Years ago, I found myself in a situation I never thought I would be in...but I came through it, found myself single for pretty much the first time ever, and somehow kept going.

I learned a lot about myself during that time. I learned what I want and don't want in a partner, lessons that I applied later on. I learned that I do want children...I just hadn't found the right person to start a family with. This was a huge awakening for me. I learned that I don't want to compromise myself simply to have someone. I maintain hope that there is someone with whom I click, that wants to share life with me as much as I want to share it with them.

So I have made hard decisions, let go of love that wasn't a good match even though it could have given me stability and a family, tried to stay true to myself and my values. But sometimes it feels as if I'm being punished for making these hard [yet ultimately correct] decisions. And the hardest part is if that is true, then I'm the one punishing myself. I could easily relax, make something happen, settle down, carve out a life with someone, even if they aren't quite the 'right' someone.

But it's not who I am. So I keep cranking along, knowing that if there is a payoff someday, it will be worth it. And if there isn't? Well, at least I stayed true to myself, and didn't hurt other people by giving them less than who I was. It's all about respect: for them, for me, for the people around me.

I respect myself too much to settle, I guess.

an interesting insight

I was talking to a friend last night about the Facebook formal that is coming up next week, and mentioned that I was trying to grow my nails out for it. They look at me, tip their head, and ask puzzledly, "Why don't you just get press-ons?"

Huh.

You know, it never occurred to me. Seriously. I'm not much for falsifying who I am, and I'm not a floofy girly-girl, so it just never crossed my mind that I didn't have to do it the "real" way.

Weird.

happy today!

** DANGER, WILL ROBINSON, DANGER!! **

NOT SAFE FOR WORK!

NOT SAFE FOR YOUNGSTERS!

NOT SAFE FOR PRUDES!

NOT SAFE FOR ANYONE WITH NO SENSE OF HUMOUR!

NOT KIDDING!!!!!!

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[I heart Jonathan Coulton.]

ferrous fellow

Can't wait to see 'Iron Man' tomorrow. Had the date booked for two months now, and it's finally here. w00t.

[I'm such a geek. :^) ]