Thursday, February 04, 2010

single again

Well, for the weekend anyway...Will finally gave in to my cajoling and snagged some time in Tahoe to go snowboarding with his buddy. He wanted me to go with, and I will definitely go next time, but right now I'm still having troubles with the social interactions, being smiley and happy and interactive. I don't like to admit it, but it's rougher getting through some of this than I hoped, especially given the time I had to prepare and the time I had with Dad before he died to talk things through. Been putting on the brave face for Will, and he's been awesome...but I'll admit that it's good to have some time totally to myself, time that lets me just be alone, no need to worry about being "on" for someone else. Still trying to figure out how to work through all of this...some days are okay, others not so much. Just kind of hanging in there, one moment after another, and making it through each day a bit at a time. I know that time is what it will take, and I've got faith in myself...but a fast-forward button would be really nice sometimes.


Anonymous said...

Hang in there girl it will take time. Hopefully not to long!! If Love would help you would be well on your way!!!! Lil Bit, Faith and I send all our love your way!!!!! And I think of you every day!!!! Love Antimony

stacey said...

Thank you, Antimony. Give Bit a scritch and Faith a hug for you.

Anonymous said...

Love, thoughts and prayers still coming your way. There are some days that it would be great to have a fast-foward button, on as in my case I would really appreciate a rewind button to go back to last Thursday and change something that I wished I would have done but did not do. Maybe it would have changed the way things are today if I would have done it. But any way take care, and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.