drained (from fb - 20200420)

(this is a post I originally made on facebook, copied here and backdated so I can look back on it later)

Guys, I'm exhausted. Mentally, emotionally...I'm drained. These are crazy times, and I was doing all right when I thought we were coming together, when it seemed like we understood that this is our battle to win, that we could all count on each other to get through this.

It's overwhelming. Almost 40,000 Americans dead, with the number doubling every week and a half. 40,000 dead in a few months. On February 26th, a public official said there were "15 people" dead. We've gone from that number to nearly FORTY THOUSAND in less than two months. And if things don't change, there will be *another* 40,000 dead in less than two weeks. And that's just in the US...the rest of the world has been staggered by this. The loss of life is hard to fathom.

But now I'm boggled and saddened and disappointed at what I'm seeing. There are people unironically demanding to be allowed to do what they want, while saying we should be locking up and quarantining the at-risk population so they themselves can be free. There are people demanding the right to do what they want with their own bodies, while denying others the same right. People who are screaming to be allowed to work, but don't want to take the jobs that so desperately need doing.

People who are shouting that because it hasn't affected them, they should be free to do as they please, ignoring the thousands of healthcare workers who are risking all to keep this from affecting more people. People who have decided that because they don't think they are at risk, that makes it okay to put others at risk.

People who are demanding things for themselves, for their own lives, but are not using that voice to push for better healthcare or better economic solutions or funding for research. People who demand the right to go where they want, to shop where they want, eat where they want, with no regard for the danger and risk that brings to the essential workers who are manning the stores, the gas stations, the offices, restaurants, the packing plants, the shipping centers.

People who have decided that because they haven't seen firsthand the devastating effects of this virus, it must mean it's all exaggerated. Even a bit of research would show that this is affecting EVERYONE. Grocery store workers. Nurses, doctors. Janitors, cleaning staff. People shipping our products, people bringing us our food. There are many painful accounts of what medical personnel are dealing with, the death and pain and helplessness they are seeing.

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN DIRECTLY AFFECTED BY THIS DOESN'T MEAN IT ISN'T HAPPENING. I hope your luck continues. I hope you never have to have someone in your circle sick or dying from this. I hope you have the luxury of it never hitting you.

Because it *is* hitting someone right now, and their loved ones are dealing with the consequences. Tens of thousands of Americans have died in an amazingly short time, hundreds of thousands of *humans* have died. Millions have been infected, and yes, there are many who have recovered. But there are many who haven't or are still fighting, hoping to be one of the lucky ones.

These are shit times and it's hitting a lot of people hard, economically and mentally and physically, and there is no easy answer. That is why we need to help each other...because this thing doesn't care, doesn't give a shit if you want your football back or want your roots done or want to go fishing or miss hanging out with your buddies on a Friday night.

This thing doesn't care...so we have to.